I donno why

I donno why.....

But i feel this way, sayang....

I feel that im just there to bear them grandchildren. And to follow them wherever they go.

I want this all to stop. Im done. Dear, help me.

We Feel Guilty

We Feel Guilty

Today, i felt some constant movements and tapping from the baby inside me. I was ecstatic, and i shared my joy with my husband through sms.

Then i saw Hairi's picture on my wall paper.

And i confided in my husband and we share the same sentiments.

Haiz..

We are so happy with the new baby but at the same time so guilty. Guilty cos soon, we have to divide our love with Hairi. And right now, we're too much in love with Hairi to start dividing any attention. It seems surreal that we are gonna have another one. When we still think of Hairi as the only ONE!

Somehow.....we have to deal with it. Don't we?

The Great Weekend

The Great Weekend....

So my boss isn't around. Last week and this.

So last week, i practically worked for one day. Only.

Monday. I was sick. Again. It was only 3 weeks after i had that bout of flu, fever and cough. And there i was again, having the flu and sore throat. Which evolves into a congested chest. And of cos, my long time fren came to visit. My ASTHMA!

Of cos i was worried for my unborn child. Too much medicine is not good for the development of my child's organs. So with only Tue of full working day, Wed i decided to go to KK for my 12 week check up.

And i got to see my baby!

Unlike Hairi who was furiously kicking in my tummy when i first saw him, this one is a cool one. Baby was just laying and wriggling its fingers. So Cute! Gynae says baby is doing fine and im just more prone to diseases around. So i gotta take better care of myself then. Cant' wait to see baby again in one month's time!

Then on Thur and Fri, i took leave. And since it's hubby's off day on Friday, we finally finally decide to get Hairi's passport done. With one condition. One or both of us will have to be with Hairi, if ever his parents decide to bring him overseas. No questions. Im not comfortable with my baby somewhere foreign without us.

And look how cute he is!

Well...nuthing much we can do abt the hair though. But he is such a darling!!

And as parents, we may be deprived of certain childhood toys, or maybe, it wasnt even invented during our time. And being the average income parents we are, we still did not hesitate to splurge (and i mean it is REALLY costly!) for our Hairi. He is after-all, our first born. And deserves only the best!

He is still learning to jump. And we love it tht he loves it!

Yes! We have always wanted a Jumperoo for him, and finally we really really got it!

And on Sat, being a hot, sunny day, I finally decide to bring him to the CCK pool. This time, im sure his reactions will differ to the first time.

And i was right! And definitely bringing him again this week cos again......Im gonna be on LEAVE!! HAHA!

And what other way is there to end the weekend other than this; Having my husband home from his night shift on Sunday morning, to kiss me and Hairi and to tell us, " I can never live without the both of you...."

Wow. Yes people. I really really really had a Blasted Weekend!

At 11 weeks

At 11 weeks....

Overnight, I became round.

Yep. After 2 weeks of intensive vomitting, running to the toilets, vomitting and more vomitting, i had lost some waist, some cheeks, some thighs. I did. Really.

Until today.

I woke up and realised that my tummy has shown. Its the after-delivery-gut plus the new baby growing. The tummy has shown, too fast, too soon.

My face.

Has become much rounder, too fast, too soon.

And.

My nose....macam bigger gitu. Or am i hallucinating? My nose, oh my nose.

Hubs laughed when i told him.

I hope i don't get what some preggy ladies get, something we call "pembawakan budak". U noe. Selekeh, or ugly, or big nose, or break outs, or blackened neck.

Ya allah, pls keep it to a minimal if its meant to happen to me. Especially my nose.

But if it's meant to be, (for me to look shabby with this 2nd child), like hubs ever said;

"At least one of us still looks cool!"

Thanks hubby. I will letak more bedak on my face. Cantik tak?

It's a difficult one

It's a difficult one.

This pregnancy that is.

I had it easy with Hairi. Not much morning sickness. No cravings. No laziness. Na-da.

But with this one, it's been difficult. Always giddy, always feel nauseas. All the time vomitting. I will vomit as soon as i consume my food. I can't stand the smell of certain things and food. If i got nothing to vomit, i still need to throw up till it's nothing but bile. On other occasions, my saliva will just keep accumulating, forcing me to spit, for no reason.

I began to have expensive taste. Healthy food don't appeal to me no more. I go for western. Im constantly thirsty, but i can't seem to down any plain water. Fruit juices now packed the fridge. I hate milk. And if my first pregnancy, i avoided caffeine, mainly tea, coffee and carbonated drinks, for this one, i love to drink tea. Dang!

I am soooo fortunate that my husband is around. We are not complaining anymore that he has to work night shifts. In fact it has helped me a lot. Cos i can't ride to work for the time being. I am too giddy every morning and i guess it will be dangerous to ride with my head tilting sideways all the time to ease off the giddiness. So my hubby will send me in the morning, go home to sleep and fetch me in the evening on his off days. Now he is on leave so he can chauffeur me to and fro everyday! Till Thurs. When he resumes work. Where i will be stuck with an hr and half bus and lrt ride to and fro from work. Die!

I hope its just a phase. Please God let it be a phase.

Meantime, my best friend is minyak cap kapak. And this medicated oil from thailand. And bag plastic merah.

On a separate note, my hairi turned 6 months last Sat! But this pregnancy has gotten me lazy. Lazy to take pics of anything.

New Bean

It has been a long time....hasn't it? I feel that way.

So what's new with dianafazli?

Well, for a start, we managed to get our own house. Resale flat, few blocks away from in-laws. How convenient! And the layout is abt the same as my in-laws house (which i loike!!) minus the balcony. Ok lah tuu!

We can't move in just yet. Earliest is Aug latest Sept. Sure we can wait. And save some money to do up a bit of the place later. Hairi's gonna have his own room! Yippee!

And our Hairi! Gosh he grew up so fast! He dah pandai bergurau, dah pandai throw tantrums, dah pandai terpekik terlolong. But we don't care cos we love him to nuts!

Anyways, it's double celebration for the three of us. Besides celebrating the coming of a new home we can call ours, we also have this.

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See below.

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Yup. Comments are welcome. Love me, hate me, trash me. Go ahead.

HAHA!