And It's Getting Closer

After a long wait with little updates and non story to be told, finally we have something to get all excited again!

Yes yes, our long awaited first appointment with HDB has been granted an earlier date. 21 AUG 09!! Alhamdullilah!

Meantime, we have been busy visualising what kinda concept we want our HOME to be. Have something in mind (with the help of a very kind interior designer), and very geared up to get it going too! The numerious debates we have on the back of our minds are over. Loan or no loan? Loan of course! Nope we can't be going back to a home that we barely like, can we? And like my buddy said, "by hook or by crook, i want a halal kitchen and toilets!" Yes, that's what we want too!

So Happy! We do need more ideas on reno though. hmmmm...

And our lil' Hairi with the BIG VOICE is already 8 months young! Recently, he lost his voice due to much shouting. And when we just thought, "mana dia dapat suara serak basah dia eh? not us seh. sedap plak tuu.." hehehe

We love him to NUTS! We love it now that he can be involved in almost everything. Crawling, sitting on his own, disturbing us eat, screaming at the top of his lungs to get our attention, throwing everything around.....we just LOVE IT!

From Hairi

He has ONE TOOTH!

Constipation

Last night was the first time i had to see my son strugggling to poo-poo. Apparently, in the afternoon, he was crying while trying to ek-ek cos the ek-ek dont wanna come out. Im sure he was crying cos he was in pain and very uncomfortable. And only smaller than a thumb size manage to squeeze out.

The maid didn't call me, though i have told her many a times, anything happens, anything at all, PLEASE call me!

So when i got back home, i fed him some banana puree, forced some water down him cos he had dry bleeding lips too. tsk. Then massaged his tummy.

While i was having dinner, he tried to ek-ek again. and he was on his tummy, sweating and crying. I cant' finish my dinner looking at him like that. Massaged his tummy till the hard stools manage to come out. Along with some traces of blood.

This morning, he manage to poo-poo as normal.

Phew. Pains my heart to see him in pain like that.

Again, i wish we are financially stable enough, for me to stay home and look after Hairi and my 2nd baby.

Maybe i should start my own business and work from home. But like what?

I donno why

I donno why.....

But i feel this way, sayang....

I feel that im just there to bear them grandchildren. And to follow them wherever they go.

I want this all to stop. Im done. Dear, help me.