Project: Home. Paused.

Breathe.

It has been a hectic last week of Nov.

The moving, the cleaning, the moving again.

The house is empty. Macam rumah bujang lah katakan. No furniture, nothing but i so love our walls. A bit of dirt already and i cannot angkat.

Anyways, no pics uploaded yet of the new interior until we do have some furniture. Some lah at least.

All these have been happening when im very sarat. Yes. Very very sarat. Im due on 15th Dec. Today i went for my check-up. Weekly check. And i lost 1kg in 1 week. According to Doc, its not suppose to be good and if i come back next week with another kg lost, he will induce me. heh.

Other than that, looks like baby is at a healthy weight of 3.1kg (plus placenta i think) and she looks like she is comfortable inside. Like her brother. Refuse to come out even when the date is due.

And as for my firstborn, he has been very clingy. Maybe he knows tht he wont have our full attention once his sis is out. So he constantly clings on to me, asked to be breast-fed, even if he doesnt wanna sleep, and just wants to be carried. Hairi ....... Hairi.....

So, this is the beginning of our newest chapter.

New home.

New baby.

And a beginning of a new Diana. The Circus Juggler.

Juggle time between hubby, 2 babies, home management, work management...all within 18 hrs in a day. Maybe a full 24 since we all know newborns wake frequently at night to be fed.

DIE!

Ayang, i takyah masak, you beli bungkus eh? Love you.

Project:Home Part 2

The end of tht crappy interior. The beginning of something new....

Very very dusty home. After all that hacking. And yes, the big FAT ME!

Nothing much 'cept for a lot of constuction stuffs.

But we are so glad that we got rid of the tiles in the kitchen and toilets and living room floor.

More to update in our next entry.

Question: Why are electricians expensive?

Tsk.

On a separate note, my baby is turning 1 soon! oh my god, where did all the time go to?

Project: Home Part 1

So many things happened since Oct. Good and bad.

Of cos we blog only the good.

Anyways, the next phase in our married ife is of cos getting our very own CRIB!

We got our house during the recession. The 2nd unit we viewed, with no COV, and we just grabbed. Only after then we realise what a run down place it is but hey....when u pay no cash for it, its all worth it.

The entrance. The door to many more family memories.

The entrance frm the inside. Full height shoe cabinet?! urgh!

My cutey son with my MIL's trusted maid, Karmi.

That balcony which is kinda useless. Very small.

The kitchen complete with door and bar-window. Heh.

That eeky common toilet.

But we love the kitchen view!

Our master bedroom.

With the more eeky toilet! We seriously wonder how the ex-owners lived in this condition. I mean the valuation report has the same pic in its dirty state many months ago. We collected our keys on 9th Oct. They left at the end on Sept. How the heck can they tahan bathing in this kinda toilet?!

Anywhos, this is our house in its original state.

More updates soon!

My Son the Heartbreaker

That is my son. My jantung. My buah hati.

He is a heartbreaker.

I wonder, how can someone so little and still oblivious to the world, can break his mommy's heart in a million pieces.

Lately, he doesn't want me. He prefers his grandma more to me.

At first i was fine. Until last Saturday.

We had guests over for raya. He was clinging on to his grandma. I tried to take him away. He refused. Eventually, he cried and wailed so loud, when i carried him.

It broke my heart.

I went to the kitchen window and cried. My husband knew how at my worst i must have felt then.

After that, i refused to touch him. My mil tried to give him to me but i refused to take him saying, "what for? he doesnt want me."

I delivered him, i fed him, i put him to sleep, i cleaned his poo, i wake in the middle of the night to make milk for him.

Yet he prefers another more to me.

Tell me, how should i feel?

They say it's cos im pregnant that's why he is seeking attention elsewhere.

That suppose to comfort me? well, it didn't work.

Hairi.....Hairi tak sayang ibu ke?

I like making money

Don't we all?

So im upgrading myself to become.....well, once i get the cert, then can announce to the whole wide world.

Meanwhile, come join me do the easiest thing on earth!


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7 weeks from now

Like very the long. But yup. 7weeks from now, we hope to finalise everything and get the key to the gates to the door to the interior of our very own home.

And before we can even begin to feel happy abt it, we already have monetary worries. Yes. Having a flat this date is not the same as having it 4 years ago. Back then (mind you only 4 years apart) you can get a house at a fraction of what we're paying for. While I jealously admire my best friend for only forking out 500ish on CPF split between herself and hubby to pay for an 18 yr mortgage, me and hubby have to sabar and hope that 30 years will pass in a jiff (while deducting 400ish from each of our accts. tsk). Or maybe, dengan rezeki Tuhan, we can afford to pay more monthly in future? Insya'allah.

And although we are not anywhere near to even smelling tht kunci besi, we have the house reno to finalise. More $$. On top of that, the initial accessories to buy for the kitchen and bathroom. We can't have a nice bathroom with no toilet bowl can we? tsk.

That aside, puasa has been pretty easy for me. Unlike Hairi, my girl in me doesnt kick me tht hard when she realise no food is coming in during my normal lunch hour. Good girl. So far so good for me, so i aim to puasa full this year. And my Hairi is already 9 months old. So big, so smart, so full of tantrums. Sometimes i cry and beg Allah to make time go slower. Cos looking at him grow up too fast, makes me sad to think that soon, it will just be good memories. My baby, a grown boy. Haiz.....No wonder our parents nak kita cepat2 ada anak. They feel the same way too i guess.

Anywho, this year's Ramadan is different. My 2nd year with hubby is a bit slack. I don't need to wake up to prepare sahur for him. Neither do i prepare buka for him. A bit boring lah cos got maid to do everything. Wait till we in our own kitchen, i think i prolly cook up a storm for him! Yarrite!

Nevertheless, this year our Ramadan and coming Eid will be same and different. Same cos i had a bulgin tummy too last year. Different cos Hairi will be in our pictures donning on the same coloured baju kurung which we are re-using again from last year. So haps-sening, i can't wait!

Our Fairy Tale

My Ideal Castle will consist of....

I, the Queen.
Him, my King.
Him, my Lil-Prince and....

From Princess

and the doctor said;
"Looks like you're having a girl. See, there is nothing sticking out, and there is a v-shape here....."

Alhamdullilah.....

And It's Getting Closer

After a long wait with little updates and non story to be told, finally we have something to get all excited again!

Yes yes, our long awaited first appointment with HDB has been granted an earlier date. 21 AUG 09!! Alhamdullilah!

Meantime, we have been busy visualising what kinda concept we want our HOME to be. Have something in mind (with the help of a very kind interior designer), and very geared up to get it going too! The numerious debates we have on the back of our minds are over. Loan or no loan? Loan of course! Nope we can't be going back to a home that we barely like, can we? And like my buddy said, "by hook or by crook, i want a halal kitchen and toilets!" Yes, that's what we want too!

So Happy! We do need more ideas on reno though. hmmmm...

And our lil' Hairi with the BIG VOICE is already 8 months young! Recently, he lost his voice due to much shouting. And when we just thought, "mana dia dapat suara serak basah dia eh? not us seh. sedap plak tuu.." hehehe

We love him to NUTS! We love it now that he can be involved in almost everything. Crawling, sitting on his own, disturbing us eat, screaming at the top of his lungs to get our attention, throwing everything around.....we just LOVE IT!

From Hairi

He has ONE TOOTH!

Constipation

Last night was the first time i had to see my son strugggling to poo-poo. Apparently, in the afternoon, he was crying while trying to ek-ek cos the ek-ek dont wanna come out. Im sure he was crying cos he was in pain and very uncomfortable. And only smaller than a thumb size manage to squeeze out.

The maid didn't call me, though i have told her many a times, anything happens, anything at all, PLEASE call me!

So when i got back home, i fed him some banana puree, forced some water down him cos he had dry bleeding lips too. tsk. Then massaged his tummy.

While i was having dinner, he tried to ek-ek again. and he was on his tummy, sweating and crying. I cant' finish my dinner looking at him like that. Massaged his tummy till the hard stools manage to come out. Along with some traces of blood.

This morning, he manage to poo-poo as normal.

Phew. Pains my heart to see him in pain like that.

Again, i wish we are financially stable enough, for me to stay home and look after Hairi and my 2nd baby.

Maybe i should start my own business and work from home. But like what?

I donno why

I donno why.....

But i feel this way, sayang....

I feel that im just there to bear them grandchildren. And to follow them wherever they go.

I want this all to stop. Im done. Dear, help me.

We Feel Guilty

We Feel Guilty

Today, i felt some constant movements and tapping from the baby inside me. I was ecstatic, and i shared my joy with my husband through sms.

Then i saw Hairi's picture on my wall paper.

And i confided in my husband and we share the same sentiments.

Haiz..

We are so happy with the new baby but at the same time so guilty. Guilty cos soon, we have to divide our love with Hairi. And right now, we're too much in love with Hairi to start dividing any attention. It seems surreal that we are gonna have another one. When we still think of Hairi as the only ONE!

Somehow.....we have to deal with it. Don't we?

The Great Weekend

The Great Weekend....

So my boss isn't around. Last week and this.

So last week, i practically worked for one day. Only.

Monday. I was sick. Again. It was only 3 weeks after i had that bout of flu, fever and cough. And there i was again, having the flu and sore throat. Which evolves into a congested chest. And of cos, my long time fren came to visit. My ASTHMA!

Of cos i was worried for my unborn child. Too much medicine is not good for the development of my child's organs. So with only Tue of full working day, Wed i decided to go to KK for my 12 week check up.

And i got to see my baby!

Unlike Hairi who was furiously kicking in my tummy when i first saw him, this one is a cool one. Baby was just laying and wriggling its fingers. So Cute! Gynae says baby is doing fine and im just more prone to diseases around. So i gotta take better care of myself then. Cant' wait to see baby again in one month's time!

Then on Thur and Fri, i took leave. And since it's hubby's off day on Friday, we finally finally decide to get Hairi's passport done. With one condition. One or both of us will have to be with Hairi, if ever his parents decide to bring him overseas. No questions. Im not comfortable with my baby somewhere foreign without us.

And look how cute he is!

Well...nuthing much we can do abt the hair though. But he is such a darling!!

And as parents, we may be deprived of certain childhood toys, or maybe, it wasnt even invented during our time. And being the average income parents we are, we still did not hesitate to splurge (and i mean it is REALLY costly!) for our Hairi. He is after-all, our first born. And deserves only the best!

He is still learning to jump. And we love it tht he loves it!

Yes! We have always wanted a Jumperoo for him, and finally we really really got it!

And on Sat, being a hot, sunny day, I finally decide to bring him to the CCK pool. This time, im sure his reactions will differ to the first time.

And i was right! And definitely bringing him again this week cos again......Im gonna be on LEAVE!! HAHA!

And what other way is there to end the weekend other than this; Having my husband home from his night shift on Sunday morning, to kiss me and Hairi and to tell us, " I can never live without the both of you...."

Wow. Yes people. I really really really had a Blasted Weekend!

At 11 weeks

At 11 weeks....

Overnight, I became round.

Yep. After 2 weeks of intensive vomitting, running to the toilets, vomitting and more vomitting, i had lost some waist, some cheeks, some thighs. I did. Really.

Until today.

I woke up and realised that my tummy has shown. Its the after-delivery-gut plus the new baby growing. The tummy has shown, too fast, too soon.

My face.

Has become much rounder, too fast, too soon.

And.

My nose....macam bigger gitu. Or am i hallucinating? My nose, oh my nose.

Hubs laughed when i told him.

I hope i don't get what some preggy ladies get, something we call "pembawakan budak". U noe. Selekeh, or ugly, or big nose, or break outs, or blackened neck.

Ya allah, pls keep it to a minimal if its meant to happen to me. Especially my nose.

But if it's meant to be, (for me to look shabby with this 2nd child), like hubs ever said;

"At least one of us still looks cool!"

Thanks hubby. I will letak more bedak on my face. Cantik tak?

It's a difficult one

It's a difficult one.

This pregnancy that is.

I had it easy with Hairi. Not much morning sickness. No cravings. No laziness. Na-da.

But with this one, it's been difficult. Always giddy, always feel nauseas. All the time vomitting. I will vomit as soon as i consume my food. I can't stand the smell of certain things and food. If i got nothing to vomit, i still need to throw up till it's nothing but bile. On other occasions, my saliva will just keep accumulating, forcing me to spit, for no reason.

I began to have expensive taste. Healthy food don't appeal to me no more. I go for western. Im constantly thirsty, but i can't seem to down any plain water. Fruit juices now packed the fridge. I hate milk. And if my first pregnancy, i avoided caffeine, mainly tea, coffee and carbonated drinks, for this one, i love to drink tea. Dang!

I am soooo fortunate that my husband is around. We are not complaining anymore that he has to work night shifts. In fact it has helped me a lot. Cos i can't ride to work for the time being. I am too giddy every morning and i guess it will be dangerous to ride with my head tilting sideways all the time to ease off the giddiness. So my hubby will send me in the morning, go home to sleep and fetch me in the evening on his off days. Now he is on leave so he can chauffeur me to and fro everyday! Till Thurs. When he resumes work. Where i will be stuck with an hr and half bus and lrt ride to and fro from work. Die!

I hope its just a phase. Please God let it be a phase.

Meantime, my best friend is minyak cap kapak. And this medicated oil from thailand. And bag plastic merah.

On a separate note, my hairi turned 6 months last Sat! But this pregnancy has gotten me lazy. Lazy to take pics of anything.

New Bean

It has been a long time....hasn't it? I feel that way.

So what's new with dianafazli?

Well, for a start, we managed to get our own house. Resale flat, few blocks away from in-laws. How convenient! And the layout is abt the same as my in-laws house (which i loike!!) minus the balcony. Ok lah tuu!

We can't move in just yet. Earliest is Aug latest Sept. Sure we can wait. And save some money to do up a bit of the place later. Hairi's gonna have his own room! Yippee!

And our Hairi! Gosh he grew up so fast! He dah pandai bergurau, dah pandai throw tantrums, dah pandai terpekik terlolong. But we don't care cos we love him to nuts!

Anyways, it's double celebration for the three of us. Besides celebrating the coming of a new home we can call ours, we also have this.

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See below.

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Yup. Comments are welcome. Love me, hate me, trash me. Go ahead.

HAHA!

What makes us happy

What makes us happy....

is that when at 4 months, he did this and this.....

And we are trying to get him to like water.

The 1st trial in a pool resulted in this.

Cold water. It can make me cry too.

So the following week, we got him in a centre for baby swimming with warm, chlorine-free water.

Which resulted in this after a while in it.

Oh well. It was his naptime but instead we dunked him in a deep sink with a float around his neck! Who won't crank up?!!

But we still sign him up. And this weekend he will go again. And this time, we hope to get him kicking and smiling in the water.

So what makes ME happy?

My baby.

And my husband who always tells me he loves me everyday.

Don't you miss our dating days? Especially when u loved me with my burnt face?

Muacks!!!

See how he grows...

See How He Grows

Why do babies grow so fast?

Few hours old, straight from the oven. I cried alone on my bed as i held him. It was all worth it.

Four days old and he never wails when given a bath.

3 weeks. Babies sleep a lot huh? i do nothing at home but just stare at my lil man.


I learnt from friends and reference books. Always give ur babies their daily tummy time. It helps to shape the soft skull instead of it being flat due to lying on his back all the time. At first i was skeptical but i got used to it. In fact, babies love it! Just remember to turn his head every 10 mins so he wont hv a sore neck. At this point, u hv to keep watch over him as he still is not strong enough to turn his head on his own. 20 mins is ample, 10 mins on each side.

Cute kan bontot tonggek....

Confinement is over! And baby Hairi with his signature "Liang po-po" mouth. His hairline will be exactly like dat when he is old!

One month! And no more saggy skin. Fats filled him up. You grow too fast honey. U nearly filling up the bathtub!

His eyes are glued, watching Playhouse Disney. He gets bored watching the Baby DvDs i got for him. Babies nowadays are smart!

Exactly 2 months here and i envy his long lashes. He has learnt different facial expressions and beginning to respond when we talk to him.

We cukur-ed his head. Some babies do not have to encounter Cradle Cap. Mine does. So i put Olive oil every night to loosen the scabs and in the morning when i wash his head, i use a cloth to scrub the scabs off. But the cukur did the trick. Just cukur off the scab! Note: Get a professional to do it. The ustaz who did our cukur ceremony came over to cukur our baby's head bald.

At this stage, he babbles a lot!

He has begun to look fairer somehow. And he tries to hold his head up. Practicing neck control. Babies develop fast and faster if we stimulate him.

My Baby is 2 days away to being 3-months old. That baby is about 7 months old. besides the slight diff in size, my baby can't sit on his own yet.

Lil man with his favourite suck/sleep companion. He now knows the different feels with his hand. I never regretted getting tht Ookie for him though some called it Pocong. Apa je.

Yep. He has filled up the tub alright. And loving his expressions as he enjoys his bathtimes more. And he laughs!! Cute laughs!

This is what i look forward to at the end of a workday. To come home to my baby who wants nothing but for me to hold him, and for him to lean against my chest and hear how my heart beats for him.

The husband sometimes complain tht i love the baby more than him (he is kidding of cos). But who doesnt! They are so precious, God's creation and to me, a miracle by the Almighty. I am fortunate. I do admit tht nothing clouds my mind but just baby, baby, baby, unlike before where it was hubby, hubby hubby, but i thank God, i am blessed with a caring husband, who helps me with the chores of being a parent. He does his fair shair of bathing him, changing him, entertaining him etc. And to that, i am grateful for.

Hubby, i still love u tops endlessly!

Ok enough for now.

Maybe i should upload vids. Hmmm....