That is my son. My jantung. My buah hati.He is a heartbreaker.
I wonder, how can someone so little and still oblivious to the world, can break his mommy's heart in a million pieces.
Lately, he doesn't want me. He prefers his grandma more to me.
At first i was fine. Until last Saturday.
We had guests over for raya. He was clinging on to his grandma. I tried to take him away. He refused. Eventually, he cried and wailed so loud, when i carried him.
It broke my heart.
I went to the kitchen window and cried. My husband knew how at my worst i must have felt then.
After that, i refused to touch him. My mil tried to give him to me but i refused to take him saying, "what for? he doesnt want me."
I delivered him, i fed him, i put him to sleep, i cleaned his poo, i wake in the middle of the night to make milk for him.
Yet he prefers another more to me.
Tell me, how should i feel?
They say it's cos im pregnant that's why he is seeking attention elsewhere.
That suppose to comfort me? well, it didn't work.
Hairi.....Hairi tak sayang ibu ke?
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